I have what I wanted.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.,

I'm back! I don't know why I'm here. I just want to write something that I can share with you. 

Have you imagine quite a different life for yourself? In my dreams, I'm remarkably free of the overwhelming responsibility of the care and upkeep of a home, family and study. I don't have to worry about the laundry getting done, the kitchen cleaned, the bedroom made livable, the carpet vacuumed, the bedtime story read, the draft of thesis wrote, the scientific paper submitted, the research done.

Everyday lead me to housework and research work, which never goes away. Between the housework and the study, my list never seems to get shorter.

"What to do?" is a question I would never hear unless I asked myself. All I would have to think about is Me! Me! Me!

And then reality strikes, and I remember what my life was like before I married and had a kid. My life, pre-children, was rather lonely even when it included ceremonies, dates and the possibility of an amazing future. There was something missing, and what I wanted, more than anything, was someone to love, who would love me back and at the same time, I'm being a PhD's holder (Here, I'm talking about part of the dunya).

He is the one who can keep his highly patience to me

She is our chikeboom!

Yes, I have to remind myself that on days when the house never seems to get clean, the kid is constantly tantrum and I wonder where I disappeared amid my roles of wife and mother, an impromptu hug around the waist, a sweet kiss goodnight and hearing "Ma-maaa.." brings it all back into focus.

It is then I realize I am exactly where I want to be.

For those women who do have jobs, along with all the other work of motherhood, I just want to tell you that you're not the only one who has a crazy life and you're also not alone in your multitasking madness. You should take some time for yourself, and that you shouldn't feel guilty. Please, make a best resolution for yourself and your family.

I really like this quote; 

"Before being a busy mom made me too busy to be a mom."

I'm here to remind myself always put 'syukur' to Allah S.W.T that I have what I wanted. May He ease everything for us.




Love,

Mama Iman